"Raison d'Etre" - comments to a post

"have you ever thought that you dont need a reason to be. You already are. That's one big reason enough in itself. Seriously, from the most basic existential point, you really don't have to have a reason or a purpose to exist. Your own existence should be enough. this may sound absurd and even nonsensical, but when you really come to appreciate life in its true sense, in its simplicity, realizing that the only alternative that you have to it is death, or non-being, you realize how truly wonderful it is, to be alive. Even if your own existence appears boring, meaningless, mundane, horrible, full of sufferings or whatever.

And just like that, you dont have any higher obligations in this life than to be. That's the only obligation that you owe to yourself. TO BE. in its truest sense. You dont have to be anything. You dont have to be rich, smart, successful, pretty, funny or anything. You dont have to have a career, a status, praise, recognition or whatever either. These are not obligations. Merely desires or motivations for people who unfortunately take them too far and turn it to obsessions or obligations, letting their own fears feed off of them... "If i'm not smart enough, pretty enough, successful enough, if i dont have this or that or that..." then what? That's why there are so many people with so many neurosis and psychosis and all kinds of disorders, eating disorders being one of them...

You have to realize that all you have in this life is your own life. In its every passing moments. And the most you can make of that life is to enjoy every moment of it as much as you can. It's not a day at a time. It's a moment at a time. Some of those moments last with you. And go with you a long way. That's what your motivation can be, if you dont have any other external source motivating you. I am not taking about those grand "just-won a lottery" moments. I am talking about simple moments like... waking up in the morning. Realizing that you could just as well not have had the chance. It's being able to use and feel all of your senses. and experience the world around you with those senses. It's being able to actually FEEL the sunlight on your skin, feel the warmth or the coldness of one object or another, it's being able to TASTE, REALLY taste the food you're eating. It's being able to breathe, see, hear... those are the moments that you have to take one at a time. The reason that i'm going at such great lengths describing you all this is because THIS is what helped me recover. It was again, very slow. A moment at a time. But it worked and is still working. Every time i get wound up with something, upset with something, or forget the very basics of what it means to be alive, i have to gently remind myself about it, get back to that very first moment of the day, when i open my eyes, and realized that i'm awake. and alive. Because once there was a very tangible possibility that i wouldn't be..."