Day Two- Let the tears out

Cry all the tears that you didn't cry back then, twelve years ago. Let them out, like you'd let out caged birds... you know they're still there, just like you know you never properly grieved the loss. At times it still feels that he's there, somewhere, and one of these days he'll come to knock on the door-as if he never left, as if he were coming home from work... But then you have to remind yourself that he's gone- and it feels like it's happening all over again- and once again, instead of letting your tears out, you bottle them up, keep them locked up...

At times you wonder how different things would be if he still were alive...

There really is no way of reconciling with the fact. Blind acceptance only numbs the pain. Time is merely a distraction. You have to let it out. Cry it all out until there's nothing left. They call it grieving. And it's through tears that you'll find relief.