Some habits are hard to break- no matter how mature you are, and how much you think you’re over the past shit- still, it’s easier to go back to the old ways and respond to every uncomfortable, disheartening and frustrating situation with the one way you've gotten so familiar with: place the blame upon yourself-even when there's none of your fault involved. It's easier that way, anyway. You avoid facing the issue itself, that way you get to avoid what's really bothering you- especially if there are other people involved and if it's them who really are bothering you. That way you eliminate the people involved to the very minimum, they never get to know your real feelings and you can successfully pretend that the issue does not exist in the first place.

You can tell yourself that you can deal with it on your own, despite the fact that your own coping mechanisms are feeble, inadequate and plain unhealthy. That way all you have to face is your own frustrations and the only way you know how to deal with them is stuffing and bottling them up. Even if you know fairly well that there's only so much shit that you can take, and eventually all that bottled up stress is going to turn into bile and resentment and end up as pain in your abdomen.